Little Cupcake Cutie

May I ask what gives the person a right to call themselves a Dom? And with that, what gives them the right to expect everyone else to act like it’s a privilege to be talking to them, or have to call them Sir or else be deemed disrespectful?

During my time in the BDSM scene I’ve learned that it’s only polite to call Dom’s by Sir at a play party and such. I have no problem doing that. In fact, there have been some Dom’s that I’ve met who I think truly deserve to be called Sir, and I feel awkward NOT calling them Sir. There are others who have told me I don’t need to call them by any special title, there first name is fine, so I do, but if I were ever requested to call them Sir or anything along those lines I would have absolutely no problem with that.

What bugs me to no end is guys who message me on yahoo demanding I call them Daddy, Sir, Mr. Whatever, etc… I’ve been called a disrespectful cunt when I’ve refused, pretty sure it was last night I got cow, ummm, I’ve been told I’m not a “true” sub, among many others. Now, I have a few issues with calling someone by a title when it pertains to online specifically.

1) There are people with a Dominant personality, and there are those who don’t have one. You can’t figure that out online. Frankly, there are some people I know irl who I would have a hard time calling Sir or anything because I don’t find they have a very Dommish personality. With someone online, you have on clue, so I don’t get that first instinct to call them Sir because they come off with such an aire.

2) Why do you need a title anyways? I understand there are some Doms who would  prefer to be called Sir and such, and again, I think some deserve it, but if you cannot feel comfortable with yourself unless you have some sort of glorified title attached to your name then there’s an issue. Come to think of it, those who I’ve met who deserve to be Sir don’t really care if I don’t use it or not…. its the people who seem to be insecure or have other underlying issues that start throwing bat shit out the cave when I don’t use it.

3) A bit off topic, but along the same lines, I am not a thing. And I repeat, I AM NOT A THING. Because I may be curious about degradation, or objectification, or other things, does not give you the right to call me a bitch toy, or some other  low name. Also, capitalize my name when appropriate. i don’t care if someone is going to type like this in a sentence and they don’t capitalize amanda, because they didn’t for anything else. But if He is going to type in such a manner that He is constantly capitalized, then He better capitalize Amanda, too. And again, there are certain people I know (and yes again,  IN REAL LIFE) that I don’t mind if they decide not to capitalize my name, and I feel they have the right not to…. but some dude that added me online, hell no. I’m just as much a person as he is, and he doesn’t know me well enough to assume any other role.

So I really don’t know where this rant is going.  Point is if you’re talking to me online for the first time, don’t get your panties in a bunch if I won’t call you Daddy or Sir. And treat me with the same respect I’m willing to give you. First impressions are everything. And if you message me with “My name is Daddy, bitch.” then don’t expect a reply back.

I couldn’t think of a title, and I think you should ignore the title that’s there, ha!

So what’s with people thinking that if they’re “hardcore” they’re gonna impress me? I recently had some random guy add me from collarme, and he started talking, our conversation was pretty dumb, too. He asked me if I liked pain, I said yes. He then proceeded to tell me he would like to take things, wrap it up in barbed wire, and hit me with them. I told him I wasn’t interested in that.

For some reason, we got onto the topic of safety, and he told me he doesn’t care about it. So I let him know that was the stupidest thing ever. I also asked him how much real life experience he has had, he says “not much” but he *knows*, just knows, exactly what he wants. He told me he just wants to be a dirty little whore, he doesn’t care if he gets AIDS or STD’s or anything. How the hell does he expect people to want to play with him when he’s not safe at all? I dunno man. I haven’t been in the BDSM scene long, and I don’t have much experience playing, but the one thing I have learned is that safety comes first, especially considering the nature of BDSM.
Then the stupid thing pipes up with “I think I’m too hardcore for you.” So I said to him, “if you say so.” Because at this point he’s annoying me, I’m getting bored, so I was gonna ignore him. He then – and I just about had a heart attack – bursts out with “My most extreme fetishes are pedo, incest and scat.” This kid wants to molest his daughter, and he wants all his children to have sex with each other, and his “woman”, to inbreed. Oh, and he wants to eat poop. Now, I’m the type of person to respect other people’s fetishes, lord knows I have some weird ones of my own, (being peed on, diapers, impact play, branding, age play, etc…) but to outright say you’re a fucking pedophile? So I told him to fuck off, and that was that.

So can someone explain to me how being a pedophile is being “hardcore” and how someone could think that impresses me?! Jebus.

There’s lots of things I don’t write in here because I don’t want people to be like “wtf?!” And I don’t know why it took me so long, but I realized a couple days ago (hence my boring post yesterday), it’s my gosh darn blog, and I’m gonna post what I want to. If people still care to read, then fantastic, if not, then oh well! I’ve noticed since I stopped posting pictures the traffic rating for my site has gone down immensely, like, I have around 10,000 less hits per day. But honestly, I don’t care. Obv. those people just wanted fap material, and I’m sick of givin’ it, or taking pictures because I feel obligated to make my site more interesting, etc etc…

I still post pictures and stuff on various sites (daily diapers, wetset, diaperspace, among others…) but I don’t wear nearly as much as I used to anymore. I just don’t feel a desire to. I think about it, and then it’s like “meh why?” I thought for the longest time I was a diaper fetishist. But I’ve realized, even looking back on all the times I’ve worn, diapers have been merely a tool in everything I do, and I like them for specific reasons, not just because it’s a diaper in itself.

1. To feel little. Diapers make me feel *Extremely* little. To put one on and watch a Disney movie in footy pajamas is pretty relaxing. Or to colour, or do other little things that I can do on my own.
2. Humiliation. I enjoy the thought of being humiliated because of wearing diapers. Whether it be being told to put one on, and having to let everyone know what and why I’m wearing it, or to simply have my secret blown by others. (within reason of course, i keep kink and work/school completely seperate)
3. Punishment. Silly little fantasy comin’ up, beware! Kinda like… “Oh, you can’t keep your panties dry? Diapers!” And then being forced into it for the night or something, and not being able to take it off ’cause I was told not to.

And I think that’s about it. So as you can see it’s not the diaper itself, its the role a diaper can play in a situation that gets me goin’. And its still sometimes sexual, sometimes not with me. Being a little for me isn’t sexual at all, so if I’m all little’d out then there is no sexual feelings there, especially if I seem to be really regressed (which I find easiest at night, when I’m stressed or sad or some shit), but humiliation is a big turn-on, same with the idea of punishment. So in that sense diapers would be kinda a turn on, feeling the bulk between my legs and *knowing* why it’s there.

And part of the reason I don’t wear is just becuase it’s so old. I don’t have anyone in real life, and living in my own little internet world is just so last year. I don’t mind being little in them (but I don’t do it that often) but to roleplay things out while wearing a diaper, as I used to, just seems silly now, and a huge waste of my time. It’s like, once you get certain things in real life, it’s hard to top it, unless it’s another real life experience…. and the internet just don’t cut it anymore for me.

So I guess the point of this post is, honestly, don’t expect me to write about diapers much. I’m not going to continue to let myself feel obligated to fill others fantasies by sharing with everyone what I did last night in my diaper, and frankly, I don’t wear enough for it to be interesting anyways. I am also going to write about what I want to. Whether its BDSM stuff, boring stuff like school, things I did with my friends, etc… oh well. It’s what I want to write about, so I’m gonna!

Oh, and if you are just here for pictures, don’t bother coming back, but at this very moment I have two things for you. :)

1. My Diaper Space, if I do take more pictures they will be there. http://www.diaperspace.com/DelicateDolly
2. One last picture, and only because I took new ones. :) Again, find the rest of the set at diaperspace.